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I am a fraud
I admit it. I am a fraud. I fall into the trap of identifying with thoughts and believing that I know what I'm talking about. I am full of shit. "I" have experiences and insights and then I begin to think I know something, and then I begin to write things on the discussion board as though I really know what I'm talking.
And then later on I'm suffering and pissed off, desperately trying to grasp onto to memories of insights and experiences.
I am just an angry, miserable little self, desperately trying to cling onto something for an identity.
I am sorry to clarityBrown for my harsh words. Your baby is actually very cute.
Thank you to clarityBrown and others for being a mirror and exposing my crap.
Love & Hate,
Chuckles
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Hi Chuckles,
I love your posts, how can I pretend or know if someone's comments or posts are "good or wrong"? It seems on forums that there are always "two" groups, one group the publishers and also to attract public for their books and meetings. And then the readers and commenter’s which many times seems to be corrected. As if there is something wrong which is totally crap. Discussions about One are almost impossible and false. How can anyone have the knowledge to know what others experience? Just because of discovering being that already was there? That does not make anyone magic or able to pinpoint or reflect as role of reflector. Any effort to do so makes it questionable.
Nobody can tell you what you feel or experience and then say it is not true or that there is a better state or that what you are experiencing is not the Love in playing a role.
So your posts are a mirror for the writers of unknowing awareness and other words, each effort and vanity to make someone clear or to feel any need to reflect one's own nature is somehow still a role playing and an identity theft including this. All the best
Yes, I agree with you Menno. I don't think anyone's words are any less valid or correct than anyone else's -- especially in this sort of context. Of course, I imagine that clarity's response to this would probably be in regard to "non-conceptual Awareness". But I really don't see the point of focusing on emptiness and dwelling on no-thing all the time. I did that for a long time, but it gets unbelievably tiresome. It just becomes another religion, and a way of living in detachment and denial in my opinion.
At the same time I'm glad that clarityBrown felt the need to deconstruct my words. I learned alot from this. The fact that I felt the need to defend myself demonstrates to me that I'm clinging to some particular perspective and deluding myself. I already knew this at some level, but I hadn't faced it and examined it -- but when I did admit it to myself I felt a hell of a lot better. And at the same time, I think he's probably deluding himself in the same way, whether he recognizes it or not. It takes two to tango -- "relationship is a mirror," as Kiloby would say. He's just repeating verbatim a lot of nondual platitudes in my view. Does "nonceptual Awareness" feel the need to argue over words and prove others wrong? Or would it be an ego that would feel the need to do so? Hmmm, I think the answer to that one is pretty obvious.
Love & Hate,
Chuckles
Love your honesty.
We are all connected...
At the root, all suffering is the same.
(That is not to say that there cannot be a learning curve as how to give expression to this suffering, haha...)
Good post.
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google this exact.. "the surround is consciousness"
You are looking..with just functional senses..at Your Soul..
the least of GodCreation. JC said IT this way.. I AM the Light.
Another said.. I AM THAT.