How To Live Informed By Consciousness? (Another Story)
This is one of those questions attention ponders without any particular clear understanding. Typically recognition doesn’t happen for me, only conceptualizing. Conditioned mind is alive and active. Seeing through the body’s conditioning is only a sometime happening. Clearly there’s no deep awakening here.
Except, this “not-seeing” is part of consciousness too because everything is as it is. Expectations actualized or not, when seen as mental filters, are seen as such by formless presence. Any sense of knowing or not knowing is because of consciousness otherwise there’d be no sense of anything.
Okay, then what? “Then what,” is that presence informs my apparent separate life every minute of every hour of every day. Sometimes knowing this happens, many times not. Somewhere, sometime, somehow, one moves beyond talking about, thinking about, obsessing about consciousness and what is real and what is dream (I’m speaking for myself here).
Mind doesn’t awaken; it overheats and totally exhausts the body, and momentarily stops. There is no conceptual breakthrough “just” a momentary shift in perception acting as an ephemeral consciousness place marker. Thereafter recognition and familiarity of how presence presents and is experienced in the body grows and deepens. Or not.
There seems to be less thinking and being, more feeling and doing until some balance makes itself felt and known. And if I am lucky, or touched by graced, or happen to have the “activating awakening consciousness” gene, I come to “know” without knowing how “informing” happens with every inhalation and expiration of the breath.