Closer and closer

I feel that while no technique is needed to realize enlightenment, it can't do any harm, either.

That's why I've been practicing Transcendental Meditation regularly for 40 years. I guess I need some structure to my seeking. TM is a technique of learning how not to use techniques. It doesn't involve doing anything but rather is a technology of transcending thinking (including the body, mind, emotions, mantra--all of it). When thinking is gone, what remains?

For me, what remains is a somewhat strange feeling of fullness yet separateness from the world. It feels slightly sparkly, like when you rub your eyes too much. It feels like a more amplified version of the separation I've been aware of all my life. It feels a little unbounded, if that makes sense. I don't yet identify with it (and everything else) as my Self, but I'm sure that will happen eventually.

I'm in no particular rush to realize enlightenment, but I do believe I'm getting close to it.

When I was very young, I became sick and tired of my ego and my defensiveness. The only difference now is that I know that the mind, thinking, and believing have to go, too. I have to die to everything that limits so I can merge into the ocean of being. I'm ready for this. I'm ready to let go.

In my body's life, I distribute meditation self-instruction materials to people around the world via mail. So far I have 700 clients. It is fun answering people's questions, even while getting some answers for myself at the same time.

Tonight and tomorrow night I'm going to attend Satsang with Jac O'Keeffe. I love hearing enlightened people speak and reading their words. So far I've been exposed to Gangaji and (by writing only) Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj. I love how they all say the same thing, and how simple is their philosophy. Very different from being involved in boundaries, and simpler than anything within boundaries.

Thank you for welcoming me here.

David